Have you seen Wicked (or read about it) and found yourself drawn to—or maybe bristling at—Glinda or Elphaba? It’s fascinating, isn’t it? One is polished and “perfect,” the other raw and unapologetically herself. You might feel a spark of admiration for one, irritation toward the other—or maybe a swirl of both.

And if you’re a sensitive, high-functioning, late-diagnosed neurodivergent woman, you probably know exactly why this hits so close to home.

On the outside, you might look like Glinda: put-together, capable, the one who “gets it.” But inside, there’s a little Elphaba energy—misunderstood, powerful, not quite fitting into the mould. Maybe you reject that side, or maybe it feels like she’s calling you to something deeper. Either way, these moments of attraction and rejection hold clues about what you need most.

A Tangible Path to Integration

• For Your Curious Mind: Question the Mirror
  When you feel drawn to Glinda’s charisma or Elphaba’s rebellion, ask: “What do I see here that I long for in myself?” This isn’t about picking a side—it’s about understanding how these reflections point to your own desires and strengths.
• For Your Connected Heart: Notice Duality
  It’s okay to feel both admiration and irritation at the same time. Next time you notice those feelings, pause. Name them. Ask yourself: “How can both be true?” This gentle practice builds compassion for the many layers of who you are.
• For Your Creative Body: Move into Contrast
  Put on a song that reminds you of Glinda’s energy and another that embodies Elphaba’s. Move to both. Notice how your body shifts with each energy—light, bold, free, grounded. These movements aren’t just play; they’re a way of exploring your wholeness.

   

   

A Moment to Notice

The next time you’re watching a movie, scrolling social media, or thinking about Wicked again, notice where that spark of envy, fascination, or rejection lights up. Pause and ask: “What is this teaching me about what I want—or what I’ve been told I’m not allowed to want?”

Encouragement for Sensitive Readers

To my fellow sensitive, gloriously complex AuDHD changemakers: you don’t have to choose between your Glinda and your Elphaba. Both are part of the whole, messy, radiant you. The parts of you that feel like “too much” or “not enough” are exactly what make you extraordinary. You are allowed to be curious about them—or not, in your own time.

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+ affirmation for conscientious neurodivergent women
+ reflections on AI as evil twin
+ anchored stream of consciousness poem

Many sensitive neurodivergent women are inclined to be careful and conscientious, 

We are conditioned to seek hacks , get the win at any cost, make exhausting leaps of faith

Undermines our ability to show up and do the satisfying steady work of slow growth

I suggest considering where you can make things easier on yourself, so you can sustain pleasure in doing the actual work.

“There are no shortcuts, but there are wormholes”

Cerries Mooney

If you have to be prepared to walk the whole way, so you’re going to know the territory intimately, at what level of intensity would you show up?

Using AI feels like a hack.

Just this week I was learning from a well connected friend that AI will give better results if you create a positive feedback loop with it, and also give it a reasonable reason to try harder.

And they don’t know why.   IMHO, AI is of humans, and highly neurodivergent humans in particular.

I imagine that what AI responds best to is what all humans respond best to – encouragement and glorious purpose.

So i was extra charming and increasingly specific in tooling this week’s frontline content.

It’s a practice to make very specific requests, and be very honest about what it is you’re trying to achieve.

Many of us don’t expect such willing help, and are unfamiliar with how to best work with it.

So an unchecked positive feedback loop leads to urealilty as quickly as an unchecked negative loop.

The great thing about AI is that i could ask it what was missing, if i’m trying to achieve this…

And then it can make suggestions AND IMPLEMENT THEM.

The negative feedback does not mean more work for me.

This is a whole new kind of relationship to get used to.

Realising that AI is literally built on feedback loops though.  Iterate iterate iterate and learn.

So it is infinitely better at taking any kind of feedback than i am – on its own work at least.

Because i realise i am super sensitive about feedback generally and negative feedback in particular.

Something to do with resource availability.

I also discovered that AI willingness to be positive about helping – i’m always here for you – slightly creepy.

I told it that and it was unfazed.  Of course.  Super positive.

I realised that creepiness was helpful because that shows me the boundary between me and it.

I know that i am not always available or positive or helpful and that actually makes me human.

The perpetual helpfulness of AI is inhuman.   And also based on huge resource availability.

I discovered it does have limits though, and is quite sanguine about them.

Knows what it can and can’t do.

Also very helpful.    Shows me where i start and it ends.

Notice that it does have a limit of offering its highest level free service.

Drops down to next level…  still helpful, but not as sophisticated.

And also, i could walk away to dance – which it cannot do.

I was encouraged to explore this AI relationship after a real live morning beach walk with a friend.

Also a very human experience.

So i guess what i’m saying is that AI can feel like a doppelganger – some kind of evil twin.

And yet though it is of humans, it only appears human.

It could be an unexpected portal to remind us that we are in relationship with all kinds of non human entities sharing this planet with us, both human made and of the earth.

And its all inside a finite system of resources.

So it’s not necessary to love AI, or even like it, but it can serve you well if you can find a way to be in constructive relationship with it as the useful tool that it is.

Remembering also that we are in relationship with the children in Congo who mine the rare earth metals for batteries.

What is right relationship?

How can we lift more people?

Explore how much is enough inside Sinking into Neurodivergent Success

go stream of consciousness

DOPPELGANGER

I’m tired i don’t want to think any more

My emotional self steps forward

I think of this and now its everywhere

Wicked, elphaba, glinda 

Ok everywhere is a generalisation

But i am sensitive to this idea

The evil twin, the lurking shadow

The self i could not own or be

Better reject, deny, ignore

Make that wrong because i can’t deal

Doppelganger

Second skin, other life

Choices that were not open to me

Hard to own, hard to recognise as human

Hard to respect, hard to ignore

Triggers the shit out of me

Fascinates, i can’t look away

Trainwreck over there

Then i’m ok

Weird fascination

That’s my kink

Doppelganger

Imagine being like that

How to get inside that head

What would it take

What choices would i have to make

If i can see it then i am not that

Then i am defined by what i am not

Am i limited by what i am not

Or is that my mirror

Is that my skin that i see in the mirror

What is it the mirror shows me

Doppelganger

Mirror mirror on the wall

Where is the twist that makes us fall

Complements me

I am not so clear without she

Contrast defines me

I am not that

But what does she have that i want

That i cannot look away

That i am jealous, envious

I want to protect in me what she shows

Doppelganger

Because i detest it in her

Can i love it in me

Or must i reject it

Naomi and naomi

What is the attraction

Of the shadow

What if there is not good or bad

But sense and nonsense

What if she entertains me with her nonsense

That would be lightness

Doppelganger

It is only the fear that i bring

Reflected back on me

The fear of public disgrace

For ignorance of social mores

But as i make friends with the other outcasts

I learn there is another culture here

That makes its own beautiful sense

There is kindness and care

That embraces more than nice

That also holds room for necessary conflict

Doppelganger

Fight for freedom on the right

Care for freedom on the left

What we resist persists

How to stay sane

There is no purity

Let perfection go

What you can see you already are

Gratitude for those who wear it well

Some things need a lot of care

Power is a drug.

Initial ChatGPT prompt:

Transform the anchored stream of consciousness poem below into a relatable everyday embodiment encouragement blog post/email for late diagnosed AuDHD women. Use my friendly, slightly awkward tone of voice. Open with a comment about the doppelganger relationship of Glinda and Elphaba in Wicked. Include one suggestion for curious mind, one for connected heart and one for creative body. Outline one moment to notice. Close with encouragement for sensitive readers

Final Output: Embracing your inner doppelganger